Wednesday, August 4

I want to make it better.
No, not better. Just good.
I want to make things good for you.
Because I see you, and I know I'm right here,
I am home.

Wouldn't it be lucky if you found a home in me?
I could hand you my presents instead of having to hide them,
waiting for you to prick your finger or stub your toe on them.

But maybe this way will serve me my purpose.
I will mend your wounds as you unfold your treasures,
marveling, grateful, at their beauty, wondering where they came from.
I will sit with you as you breathe in the sky, thinking of who it must have been that left it,
so very sure you know. You will be wrong.
I will accept this,
and I will keep hiding your presents.

Wednesday, July 21

Perhaps we begin where it ends,
strong in our sorrow but for the fissure splitting our sides,
doubling us over with remorse,
as what we could have done better, cleaner,
is so much easier to distinguish as we turn our heads behind us.
But it is now that we'll stretch up and away
as two branches of a tree facing east and west.
Though I am thankful that we are connected by this singular body,
hearty and alive.
I am happy it reminds us there was a time it could have chosen
to make us grow as one.
It makes me happy, as do all possibilities, they way they grow into infinite branches.
They are my friends.

Saturday, June 26

What is wrong with our generation
that we can't grab gravity by the throat
and shout and scream "No!"
into its gaping mouth?

Saturday, May 8

I'm breathing colors. In: purple, out: hazy grays.
This scene is a gift, wrapped in glitter and bright lights,
pristine and whole in its ingenuity. From outside, windows from wall to ceiling
frame it, as if it were art.
Step inside and know, feel history has taken place here.
Delicate brocade runs up the walls to meet with the twilight,
where the mesh and fold into one another.
Follow the spidering maps in the wood grain in any direction
and surely you'll uncover a secret.
North to the dining room table, all cherry wood and stark indifference
to meet the plays of lust and dirty lies that have surely occurred
inches over its surface. Look there now, see them hover?
East will take a wobbling guest, buoyant with bubbly,
to the residency's flower beds, pretentious in their simplicity
amongst such lavish settings. Keep watch for the snakes.
South. South goes up and up and up in a corkscrew of wrought iron
and silver then dies out upon reaching its vanishing point.
Those steps take you nowhere.
Once you leave the stars behind you beg the shadows to claim you.
And they live here. Under carpets etched with gold,
and tinkling fixtures fashioned of frozen constellations, they do exist.
Go west and forget these creatures.
West lies a door and a mirror, the latter appearing to slither
and bend in upon itself as you peer in, distorted.
Behind you, the party plays out and each guest is a dancer,
a puppet, bobbing to and fro,
not caring if their tipping point is reached
because they know the walls will catch them.
These walls, these glorious, innocent walls that have beared witness
to more than they ever intended.
The whispers might never hope to escape
and become echoes with them standing guard.
These titans, monolithic sheets of paper, really, sag and struggle
to form the shape of this present, everlasting.

Sunday, April 25

It's in my head.
Five years ago or so I remember this dream. But I just remembered it yesterday.
Is this deja vu?
You pass a sign and put on your sunglasses and turn to look at a face you didn't know before
but now do well enough to know that it was the same person in the dream.
Trepidation's been swirling around in the air caught with shame, but you're having fun
even though you know a year from now you'll regard it as you did before.
Dirty. Stupid. Wrong.

Does it matter? It's not right or evil or wrong or good. It just is. It's there, busy being, while you're busy assigning it a meaning. And that's my problem. You leave and stay gone so repetitively but then you come back in and rearrange me to your liking.
And I never fight it.
I'm going to blink my eyes and you'll be back on your shelf
in the back of my mind where you really belong.
I don't live to see you smile anymore.
I'm not holding on to your way of life hoping you'll put me in your pocket.
I'm your fall back? You're nothing. I don't know you.

Tuesday, April 20

Sometimes it's just the comfort of being close even if it's alone.
You know? It's, um...you know a person and they know you
and it's existing together. At the same time.
That's all it is.

Wednesday, April 14

I quite like these days, actually.
I always use the same words on them, in the same order.
And they don't happen often.
But when they do there is a quiet certainty with which I walk.
I know I won't have to look into anyone's eyes or toggle which hand I gesture with
nor rearrange my body to best suit the situation.
Today it is simply yes and no, closed, wrapped up, divine and simple.