I'm so goddamn lonely.

And I can't just fucking let go

and be among people, as peers,

or as friends

that could possibly take me

to be anything other than a base

immoral

immature

bitter

sarcastic

profane

unattractive

rough hewn patch of a person.

I don't give them a chance

so why should I ask for one in return?

Warm bodies to stand in for friends.

I just want their representation there

for me to turn to and smile at

sincerely, but emptily.

I'm just getting along

until the next time my hibernation ends

and everyone else crawls back in their caves

right as I'm emerging.

What even is winning. It's cold.